am i a bad person for not respecting my dad?!?!?!?

my dad was my big monkey (someone that i've ever respected)
the man who is supposed to protect me,..
angry with me about my score or complained about with whom i used to hang around with,.
the man who made me feel that i wasn't good enough for all the things that i've done, so i tried my best to make him proud...
the man who is supposed to make me believe that i am the most beautiful girl in the world ,and the greatest leader to my siblings...
i thought that you were the best man ever!
i dont know, whats goin on here now, i think time has changed you to be someone that i don't even know...
you don't even wanna ask about my college's life,yeah..maybe that is better because i dont need to try hard anymore to make you proud...you weren't going to show up your care to my brother's birthday...you don't care about my sister's need...the only one that you care about is YOURSELF!
i  begin to hate you, but still loving you as our dad....
i just lost my respect.... sorry...